There is a three foot thick curtain in your life. You view it as you would a solid wall as it seems to serve the same purpose. The thickness makes it extremely heavy, nothing can push it aside and nothing ever comes from the other side. It has closed off a section of your life. Whatever is on the other side should not be lightly meddled with, you are willing to avoid getting too close to the curtain.
But the curtain is movable. It was not meant to close off that section in your life but when that part is visited to be treated as holy, separate, other. It will take a lot of effort to access what is behind the curtain but it is worthy of effort.
Living without visiting the other side is living a half life. Fullness is available to you.